As I scroll down my Twitter feed and Facebook timeline, I’m seeing numerous posts about results day tomorrow and I can’t help but go back three years ago to my own results day. I remember the anxiety that built up within the days and weeks leading up to results day. I had a feeling that my exam results were not going to be what I expected and I would probably have to go through the Clearing process, so I began to Google various gap year options all while praying that come results day, all would be fine and I would laugh over all my angst.
Results day came. And my results did not arrive. My Facebook feed was filling up with all my friends changing their education status with their University destinations and the odd person was posting their grades. Meanwhile, I was sitting in my room, heart pounding, nauseous and more nervous than I had ever been in my life. Then UCAS track opened. I logged in. And right there was my fate – CLEARING. My heart sank. I felt as if all my hard work for the past two years had gone to waste. Yes, I had my suspicions after my exams that my results weren’t going to be what I wanted, but once I got my actual results from my teachers, I was extremely disappointed. I’ll be honest, and I know this will sound very dramatic, but it felt close to the end of my world.
Despite all this melodrama, by 1pm that day all had been sorted and I was offered a place to study French & German at a university in London . A Russell Group university, in London and a place on the course I wanted…I was ecstatic. But looking back now on that day, I feel like all those ups and downs of emotions is something I didn’t really need to go through. I guess what I’m trying to say is that, when it comes to results day, it all works out for the best at the end of the day. I had my sights set on another university in London and even contemplated taking a gap year in order to retake my A levels and reapply for the 2013 intake. But now three years later, at a university that was not even on my radar during the application process, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Often we allow results to define who we are as a person. But trust me, they don’t. Since being at university, the results I achieved have never affected my university experience in a negative way and I have never missed out on an opportunity due to my results. Yes at first I was not proud of my results, and I’ll admit I don’t go around boasting about them, not that they’re terrible, but I know I could have done better and did not reach my full potential. But over the years I have grown to be very content with them, as without them I would be in a very different position than I am in today. I would not have met the amazing friends that I have made. I maybe would not have had the chance to uphold the various leadership positions that I have held/will hold during my time at uni. Ultimately, the last three years could have turned out quite the opposite.
So for those receiving their results tomorrow or next week, please don’t think that your results define you. Don’t allow them to dictate your happiness or your future. If you don’t get what you expected, of course you’re allowed to be disappointed. But trust me when I say it will all work out for the best in the end. It may not seem like it at the beginning, especially when everyone is rejoicing around you, but sometimes we are so clouded with what we think we want and work so hard to try and achieve it, often without realising other paths that we can go down and other opportunities that we can take. Ultimately, I am, as I’ve mentioned in a post before, a firm believer in everything happening for a reason and everything that will be, will be.
Wishing all expectant students the best of luck!