I’ve finally plucked up the courage to start blogging again after what was probably a year’s hiatus. Now that I’m done pursuing my degree, and have a lot more time on my hands, I wanted to get back into my first passion, which is writing. It’s something I don’t tend to share with others and only really my family and perhaps a few close friends know that I write. I guess that other writers might be able to understand, since for many of us the words and sentences we construct are all quite personal to us. And some, like me, may even feel a little apprehensive at the thought of others reading their work. But writing is something I have always done since I was a little girl, and no matter how long I spend away from it, I always find my way back to pen and paper. So in an effort to get back into the swing of things, I decided to go back and remember why I started blogging in the first place.
Growing up, whenever I was asked what I wanted to be when I was older, my answer was always ‘A Writer.’ However, my mum soon made it clear to me that most ‘writers’ are unable to make a substantial living from just writing books, and that if I wanted a ‘proper job’ I was going to have to think of a back-up career. So a few years later and upon entering secondary school, I now declared I wanted to be a journalist. After all, they got to write for a living, right? As I entered Sixth Form and the prospects of university applications weighed upon my mind and future career aspirations clouding my head, I turned to writing as my creative outlet to allow me to escape the essays and homework that plagued me at the time. And with a huge workload from school, my daily routine of writing in my journal before I went to bed soon felt morelike a burden than the relaxing part of my day that it once was. Ultimately this is how I turned to blogging. I wanted to continue recording my life and thoughts, but in aspace that allowed me to come back to it, as and when. I can’t really remember how I first came across the concept of blogging, but I do know the first blogs I ever really read and was really interested in were fashion blogs. So in 2010, I started my first blog; a fashion blog. Looking back, I don’t know what right I thought I had to be writing about fashion. Yes I liked to dress nicely and cared about my appearance like most of my peers, but I definitely was not the fashion forward type who was up to date with all the latest trends. Anyways, after a few posts, I paused blogging as school and life took over.
Fast forward a couple of years later when I was in my second year at university, and I resurrected my Sixth Form fashion blog and developed it into both fashion and lifestyle. I really don’t know why I forced the whole fashion blog thing. Perhaps it was because it was the only genre of blogs that I was really aware of and read. I don’t really know, but anyways, again after about 20 or so posts, I deleted that blog. At that time I think I was still quite insecure about sharing my written work and didn’t really want anyone I knew reading the blog and forming their own opinions. It’s not that I felt that any of my posts or my writing were bad, but looking back I think it was just a lack of confidence in myself and my craft.
However a year later, as I embarked on my year abroad to Paris, I began a new blog, mainly focused on travelling and my year abroad experience.After a few posts, I soon stopped. Now I’m no quitter, but my year abroad didn’t have the greatest start, with issues finding accommodation, a family tragedy and dealing with homesickness and loneliness. Due to all the emotions I was flooded with, I just didn’t feel inspired to write, and I felt that my year abroad was supposed to be such a positive and momentous experience, that I didn’t want to write post after post whining and complaining. Despite this, I was always making notes and jotting down ideas in notes on my phone of post ideas and things to mention because I just couldn’t escape the writer in me.
So here we are; June 2016! Now I probably sound like a bit of a flop, but with each previous experience of blogging, I have learnt more about myself and grown as a writer. And that’s why I decided to start blogging again. Because I want to explore that area of myself once again and at the same time share my thoughts, experiences in life and any other topics I wish to talk about. I know most bloggers have a niche, and I think that’s great, but I’ll be honest, I don’t like boxing myself into a category very often. So one day I could be talking about my year abroad, another I’ll focus on travelling, maybe one day it will be my opinion on current affairs and political issues. And who knows, maybe I’ll take a stab at a fashion post or two. But for the time being, I hope that anyone reading, will stick around and follow me on my blogging journey.